Why Do We Lose Our Passions?

Remember my last post where I mentioned about a bucket list?  Well, I guess I am choosing to talk about this.  My aunt was on her way to get groceries the other day and... this is hard to write about, but she was involved in a hit and run.  She got hit.  She's still in the hospital and we are on edge, not sure how she will make out of this, if at all.  I love my aunt.  Along with my mom, she raised me... she raised me to be the man I am today.

I remember when I was young, and mom was working long hours, she would tuck me in, read me a bedtime story, and sometimes, we would both sing together.  That's how my passion for singing and playing guitar started.  My mom worked a lot.  That's what happens when dads bail.  This is the reason I love women: they are far stronger than they are given credit for, and I firmly believe, especially mentally stronger. But I'm sure, a debate for another day.

I remember when she took me to this one studio in San Diego a couple of years ago.  I play in a rock band and my mom and aunt come to as many shows as they can.  It's not easy for them, but I do love seeing their faces in the crowd.  Back to San Diego: we drove there from New Mexico and to my surprise, she had booked a studio known for some great work.  In fact, I had been eyeing them the year prior but didn't have the budget.  Anyway, this sound studio San Diego was amazing.  We had four hours booked and got a song down.  But it wasn't the song: it was the memory made that way, knowing that I was meant to be involved in the world of music, somehow.

What a long tangent I went on... but if there is a God, I am praying that he will make her heal and bring her back to us, because she is too young for this.  For those of my friends (and myself) who take time for granted and waste it... please go visit your loved ones, pick up the phone, say I love you!  I'll be visiting my aunt first thing in the AM and so please, send her some well wishes.  Thank you.

Anyway, I'll be focusing on taking all my energy and pouring it into music in the coming weeks.  Maybe even play it for her...